Babi looking lost and bewildered even though he's got enough grass to graze until he explodes.
My babi is the typical Aries character...perpetually discontented and wants more even when he's got everything going for him in life. Don't get me wrong here...I don't mean he's not thankful for what he's got...sure, he is, but somewhere deep in his complex, Arian soul, he feels this deep gnawing sensation that something is still missing.
Are rams genetically predisposed to Attention Deficit Disorder? I would like to think not, but...
I hate to attribute this to something as generic and flaky as astrology, but the coincidences are too magnificent to dismiss. Almost every Arian I know possesses this character quirk. They're all a bunch of fiery, passionate people who are lively, likeable go-getters. As a result of their likeability, they ascend very rapidly in life. They're easily ignitable and calm down just as quickly. I'm sorry to say this, but they've also got the attention span of a severely under-developed, under-nourished fly.
They get all excited and passionate over something, and go all out for it...but their fire dies just as quickly. Few things in life can hold their attention and interest for long. I can only conclude that Arians crave for variety in life, not so much of excitement. The mundanity of routine bores them stiff. They are individuals who bore easily, may it be with hobby, career or love life. They constantly crave for that elusive, often-unattainable something...but they're usually unable to put a finger on what exactly the missing piece of puzzle in their life is. So, like the typical ram that they are, they get bored and disillusioned.
Trust me, when a ram is sibeh sian...his entire surrounding resonates with his sentiment. Those near and dear can feel it like one can feel a ram charging at and goring at her with his horns.
For any thing to hold their attention, much less passion...that thing has to constantly evolve to keep them on their toes. Arians thrive best when something out of the ordinary (not even necessarily something major) happens (as seen in how the 3 little girls incident momentarily lifted Babi from his mood rut). The Arian will absolutely die a slow, tortuous death when they have to experience or deal with the same thing day in and day out, over and over again.
Babi has a healthy conscience, so he is likely to suppress what is bothering him until it eats him up inside. While I can understand where he's coming from, I don't see why life has to be about doing something or going places (by that I don't mean go jalan jalan hor). I'm an atypical Leo who finds comfort in familiarity and is perfectly happy nua-ing at home doing nothing day in and day out. Am I happy the way I am? You bet your sweet, ambitious ass I am.
I am digressing here, but I do want to air my humble two cents on life...
Who wrote The Book of Life that living has to be about the vibrance of constant action? Living is about being happy. If one is happy rotting in bed all day and that is what truly brings a smile to his face, then one is living. If one is scaling Mount Everest thinking to himself, "The things I do to make myself feel that I am living", then one is merely pretending to live.
Living isn't about getting somewhere in life. The only final destination we will all surely and eventually get to is death. All else in life is one long, turbulent process, some more turbulent than others. Why hasten the process when you can slowly savor what you're able to make of life (notice I don't say 'what life has to offer')? In my words, don't take life too seriously. If you're unhappy with the way you're living (notice I don't say 'your life'), then do something about it.
I know exactly what John Lennon meant when he said, "Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans." Because that is exactly what is happening to most of us, whether or not we're aware. Life isn't for us lowly mortals to contemplate...it's for us to live and suffer through. It is, however, in our hands whether or not we're happy, as we head towards our collective, irrevocable fate.
While we're preoccupied thinking we should be doing this and that, we should've gotten here or there, comparing and complaining...life is passing us by because time waits for no man. Life doesn't revolve around what you need to know, it revolves around what you need to understand. So, while I'm waiting for a sign that will indicate to me what meaning I must give to my life, right now my futile existence alone is satisfactory.
"Some people live to be. I just live." Susie de la Chappelle
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